There is a warning about ‘after life’ came into
my life again. Two grandfathers passed away in a week. Although, I just followed only
one of both funeral preparations – yesterday, I recognized them as my “senior”
in my daily life. Honestly, I have no much interaction with them, but I don’t
know what kind of a feeling that remain in my deep heart. I just looked at the
body which covered by a veil and awared my self that he would not open his eyes
again. Something that waked me up, “he has been taken away”.
Before my grandfathers passed away, I had a
hard situation. Perhaps, I have some problems and I am not mature enough to overcome
my own problems. I just was losing my control toward something that related to
my heart. Then, something knocked my heart when I saw the body of my
grandfather. When I looked at the body, I thought that someday I will be in his
situation. I imagined when I have difficulties in solving lecturer problem, I
could try to find any one who want to help me, teach me how to solve the
problem by using certain strategy, but… when I imagined about life after die, I
never be approached by souls of my family who passed away in order to give me
information about “what must to do” or “what must to be left” in life.
Immediately, I ‘wake up’ and said to my self, “I have an excessive feeling
toward my own feeling. My soul still inside of my body, but I just have little
attention on a death preparation. What am I doing during this period time?”